Nostalgia and Bubbliness

I’m inlove…In fact, I am so much inlove.Haha.Well, I haven’t written on my blog for quite some time and now is the perfect time to update it…Given that I am in a very good mood. And again, I am so much in love. Haha.

So I met him way back 10 years ago when we were still in fourth grade. I just MET him [something like that]..But we were not really friends at that time.. Not even enemies…We were just plain classmates. So plain that I couldn’t remember any single memory of him– conversation, bullying…There was NONE. Zilch. Nada.

Life went on after fourth grade…He lived his and I lived mine..Years went by and now, here comes the dawn of online social sites..Friendster, Facebook, Twitter,Myspace! He found me in one of these and he added me onto his list of friends and there we went, we had our first chat. That was July 14 of this year I think when we sorta catched up and stuff. There were HIs and HELLOs. The usual…Harry Potter was on the big screen at the time so he invited me. And who am I to say no?It was HARRY FRIGGIN POTTER!It wasn’t a date…It was more of an acquaintance movie date….Or..Okaaaaaay. Maybe it was a date.

Several days after Harry Potter [which turned out to be a very disappointing movie by the way], he asked me if he could court me…This is why I love being a Filipina..We have this tradition though evolving, it’s never ceasing..We get to be courted. Believe it or not, courtship is still practiced here. Haha. So I said yes to that..Why? I don’t really know…Maybe it was because I felt a sense of connection right away..Right at that very first chat that we had and much more when we finally met at that movie date. It felt like we’re close..Like we’ve been so close for a very long time..That we never got to be separated–school wise. I loved that kind of feeling that’s why I allowed him to court me. 🙂

He was pretty persistent and I felt a sense of perseverance..There were roses. The daily texts. The I-wanna-see-you stuff. The courtship period was more than great. That is why, after a month I gave this cellphone charm to him with the letters Y-E-S. Yes, I became his girlfriend. 🙂

So far so good…I’m happy. We’re happy. And we’re determined to make this last..Forever. ♥

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Congratulations on being the creator of a new Evil Plan ™! Your objective is simple: World Domination. Your motive is a little bit more complex: Love (Yes, it works) Stage One To begin your plan, you must first devour a chosen one. This will cause the world to whisper among themselves, overwhelmed by your arrival. Who is this criminal mastermind? Where did they come from? And why do they look so good in classic black? Stage Two Next, you must destroy new york. This will all be done from a medieval castle, a mysterious place of unrivaled dark glory. Upon seeing this, the world will fall into catatonic trances, as countless hordes of robot warriors hasten to do your every bidding. Stage Three Finally, you must reveal to the world your great supernatural forces, bringing about horrors beyond man’s comprehension. Your name shall become synonymous with all that is wrong with the world, and no man will ever again dare cross you. Everyone will bow before your cunning intelligence, and the world will have no choice but to give you control of the planet.



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I miss this pastime! Maybe I’m gonna write something soon… 🙂

This commercial is by the way, the most anticipated and the most watched commercial here in the Philippines today. Here’s  cha-cha aka bulilit!:P

As a student nurse, I always say a little prayer right before I go on duty. And what do I pray about? Well, a little selfish I may say but yah I pray that our patients wouldn’t be so toxic. I pray that the shift will be as stress free as how we want it to be.

However, such prayers will definitely change. In my 3 days of duty for this week, every shift is effin toxic. IVFs here and there. Reinsertions here and there. NVSq2. VSq15. Name it, Medical main ward has it. At first I was definitely stressed for never has our grouped encountered such level of TOXICITY. And yeah, as expected, we were all cramming and nervous while trying to be the best that we can to our patients…

For this week, I realized that nursing is all about toxic stuff. The 8 hours that we impart to our patients should be very worthwhile. Of course we are tasked to do the usual stuff like checking of the VS and charting but like what my clinical instructor has said, “It doesn’t stop there”. And yeah, I can say now that I agree with what he said.

People nowadays seem to belittle this course. Nursing is undeniably in demand here and abroad but we must always remember that it shouldn’t be just the money that we should use as our motivation. Above all we must be concerned of our patients’ welfare. They are sick, and they need care. God has chosen us to be the instrument of His care and love. Let’s serve that purpose wholeheartedly. 🙂

Today

Posted on: April 4, 2009

This past week hasn’t been easy for me. Physically. Mentally. Socially. Everything!

Today however is the highlight. I woke up with the usual urge to do so. Realizing that I was already late for the long range planning of the Nursing Students Executive Committee, I hurried like hell. Btw, I woke up at 7 and my meeting is at 7:30. So yeah, everything was done with speed. Speed bathing. Speed eating. Speed brushing. Speed everything!!!

At the school, I was so surprised to find a lot of members of the club in the said planning. It was so unusual since most of the time only the officers and heads attend in such meetings.

Everything went smoothly. Kudos to this school year’s NSEC President, my very good friend Norman whom I call “babes” for no reason. XD he presided and was able to hold the meeting successfully.

So much for the boring stuff. The meeting isn’t the highlight of my week. The drama at KFC is.

So yeah, my friends and I went to the Mall to hang out. We did the usual window shopping and yeah, we all had fun. 🙂 Being tired and hungry, we all decided to dine at our fave fastfood; KFC. They all ordered the chicken burger meals while I had my usual order, the infamous SNACKBOX! I can eat that  everyday btw. 😀

So with the usual chat that we have, we finally reached the unlikely topic — RESECTIONING. If you don’t know what this is, resectioning is the process wherein the students of a certain year level are reshuffled into different sections. The sad part? The Clinical Instructors make sure that one gets to be in a section with people whom he/she hardly knows. And yeah. You guessed it! WE DON’T LIKE THAT IDEA!

First and foremost, this coming year would be our last year in college. So why would they make a fuss in doing the resectioning??? Can’t they just spare us the time to be together for this one last year? Second, the Clinical Instructors say that the rationale behind the resectioning is for us, the students, to get to know the others from other sections. I mean duh, we only have two semesters left! And yeah, we’re not interested! Third, what worries me is the fact that the yearly retrats and recollections are done per section. Now, since we are going to be reshuffled then retreats and recollections wouldn’t be that effective. I mean, those activities need opening up and sharing right? Now why would I do that if the people around me can hardly connect with what I’m saying? Lastly, it’s the bond. The bond that my section for two years has is so strong that we really disagree to the resectioning idea. Hedious! We just love each other so much. We’ve been through a lot, both academically and socially. We’ve shared a lot of memories. And yeah, we’re just this one great class!

So with all the talks about these, my friends and I cried. AT KFC.  Haa. Silly I know. But yeah, we just can’t help it that tears just started running down our cheeks. People on the other tables stared at us and even the security too!

We’re just upset and sad.

While browsing through the net, I found this from an anonymous writer. Pretty cool. 🙂

This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don’t want to laugh, because you know it’s not going to help, but you don’t want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it’s falling apart too. You don’t think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That’s the confusing part, you don’t know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you’re getting happy again, but you know inside that you’re just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you’re back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can’t help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn’t happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don’t know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you’ve had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you’re to the point where you don’t care who see’s. Because you’ve spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it’s not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, “It will be okay…” But you know it won’t. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You’re still hurt, but you’ve learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don’t hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this…

It’s been like a few weeks since I became single again. And I love it by the way! Single is sexy for a number of reasons. Lemme share ’em to you.

1. I don’t have to wake up at 4 am just to talk to him. Time gaps really suck!

2.  I don’t have to waste money on my cellphone load just to send my greetings of good morning and stuff. It’s global recession! We all have to be thrifty now. Haha.

3. I won’t  have to worry about getting online on Sundays. I’ll be out and about. 😀

4. I get to have more time for the people who are dearest to me. My mom and the rest of the family. 😀

5. Paranoia is so out of my vocabulary. So is jealousy!

6. I won’t have to send greeting cards again. The last time I did, I got it back! XD

7. I won’t have to write jumbled addresses anymore! Denmark’s address is indeed shorter than the Philippines but I can’t seem to spell ’em right!

8. I don’t have to expect any text messages,letters, or offline messages anymore. It lightens up my baggage of expectations. Haaaa.

9. I get to hang out with my friends more often.

10. I absolutely won’t worry about having another heartache. For now at least. 😀

To all single women out there, dumped or dumpee [ is there such term?XD], never feel like you’re unworthy. Instead, think about what a great woman your guy gave up. Maybe you’re too good for him. He doesn’t deserve you, and vice versa. So stand up, chin up, and walk tall. Be happy!Be beautiful. Cry for awhile but never mourn for an eternity. That’s what I learned from my latest failed relationship. Well yeah, it sucks right but sooner or later, you will  soon know the reason behind why your love story didn’t get to have a happily ever after ending. 🙂

At a glance, people may see me as a girl who’s jolly, friendly, talkative, and at the same time fierce and strong-willed. But here’s the truth folks, I can be very weak too. And right now ,  I guess I am at my weakest.

Things in my life didn’t turn out to be how I wanted them to be. A breakup. A half-brother. A martyr mother. Gee. Could there be anything worse than those?

With these events and persons in my life right now, sometimes I find it hard to find a reason to smile. It’s just so hard. Forgiveness is hard. Acceptance is even harder. And right now, I’ve got no one to lean on or nowhere to go where I can find myself at peace. Where I can be me. Where I can show my emotions. No one and nowhere but this blog.

Da#n. I suck at life. Or maybe life just sucks.

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